New Pics of Ella

Here are some new pictures of Ella Boo!

Some pictures of Ella

Here are a few pictures of Ella. The one where she's asleep is when I was changing her diaper and she passed out on me. The other ones are of Ella when she met her Auntie Leslie and Emme for the first time. They were so cute together. Emme was so fretful when she saw her mommy holding Ella for the first time. It was pitiful.

Hope you enjoy!!

Yipeeee for Sleep!!

Ella slept throught the night last night!!!! WHOOHOOO!! 11:00 pm-6:30 am. She ate, went right back to sleep, and slept until 10:00. She's finally getting over her sinus infection thank goodness.

For the past couple of days she's been laughing out loud a little bit. She had done it for me a couple of times and Jon hadn't heard her do it. Then last night we were sitting in the living room and she let out this big belly laugh. Jon and I just laughed. She is so sweet and so happy all the time. I could eat her up.

Big Spring Jam is this weekend!! Big Spring Jam is a huge outdoor music festival that happens every year. I am so excited. We're going on Friday and Saturday night. Mom and Dad are coming to keep Ella so we can go. She's going to be even more rotten when they leave. I'm looking forward to them coming.

Leslie and Emme are coming on Saturday on their way home from the beach to stay for a couple of days. Very Very excited!!! This will be the first time that Leslie's been down since Emme was 2 months old. She didn't get to spend a lot of time with Ella when we were in TN so I'm looking forward to her being here. I can't wait to play with Emme. She's getting so big and is so cute! I'll post pictures of her and Ella together when I can.

I Forgive Circuit City

I totally forgive Circuit City and any horrible things that I have said about them in the past few weeks I take back.

Our laptop that we've had for 4 years went out of warranty at the beginning of August. The CD burner was broken so we took it in to be fixed before the warranty ran out. That was when Ella was 2 weeks old. Last Saturday was 8 weeks since we had the part ordered. Well, they finally got the part in and when they went to install it they couldn't get the face plate on. We had to wait and wait. I eventually went in and chewed 2 people out. So they called us today and told us that they couldn't fix it, but they would give us a NEW LAPTOP!!!!! WHOOOPPEEEE!! It's so pretty. It's a Sony VAIO and it's awesome!!! So much better than our other one. They poor guy that was trying to fix it kept asking us if this made up for the trouble we had with them. We were both like, "Heck Yeah!!". I love, love, love it!!! Did I mention it's pretty. It's shiny and silver and wonderful.........i need a moment.

So Circuit City is now back in my good graces.....(I'm sure they were very concerned about that).

By the way....the yard sale didn't go really well. We made about $30. Jason made about $60 I think.

I've been watching the "So You Think You Can Dance" marathon all weekend on MTV. I love that show. I totally wish I could dance like that. Oh...to have that much coordination. Alas, I am gracefully challenged.

Just for fun I'm including these new diapers I am obsessed with but can not afford to buy. I want at least one, but Jon thinks I'm crazy to spend $27.99 on one diaper. Yup, you heard that correctly....$27.99 for something she will poop in. But look at them. They are so pretty

We Have To Much Junk

We're having a yard sale tomorrow over at our friend Jason's house. Auntie Lo came over to watch Elle Boo while we went through the garage. They had a good time snuggling. I hate getting ready for yard sales. You never realize how much stupid stuff you've saved over the years until you get ready for one. What we don't sale tomorrow is going straight to the Goodwill. We're not bringing it back to the house. I want it gone!!!!

Ella was so good today. She's finally started to get over the whininess where she wants me to hold her all the time. I actually got to clean my house today!!!!! WHOOPEE!! It was about to drive me mad. I still have our bedroom to clean, but I can do that after the yardsale.

We put up all the yardsale signs around the neighborhood and the surrounding streets last night around 7:00ish. Jason's neighbor said that 3 different people came to his house today while he was at work and knocked on the door wanting to get an "early Bird" deal. What is with these people? Are you serious? Hardcore yardsale people are a different kind of breed. I can't imagine getting up at 6:00 in the morning on a Saturday to go rumage through someone elses junk that they don't want. Oh well....to each his own.

I'm going to go take a shower while Jon has Ella entertained and get to bed so I can handle "Yardsale Mania" tomorrow. Wish us luck!!

Cloth Diapers

I thought that I would share a picture of Ella in her pretty green cloth diaper. Of course she has the matching pacifier and is sitting on the matching green pillow. I know, I'm a dork.

The Guilt and Fear of Motherhood

Ella just started sleeping her crib over the past week or so and for the past 3 nights has slept in her room by herself. I slept in the room with her for a few nights and then decided to hook up the baby monitor and sleep in my own bed. I haven't really slept that well in the past few nights without her in the room with us because I'm terrifed of not being in the room with her. I guess one of my biggest fears is SIDS. I guess I keep thinking that if she's in the room with me that it wouldn't happen, which is not entirely true. I know that she eventually has to sleep in her own room, but 2 months still seems a little early for my liking. She was sleeping in our room in her Amby baby hammock but she sleeps so much better stretched out in her crib. Plus, she's not hearing us toss and turn, get up to go the bathroom, me snore, etc..

I guess I didn't realize the feelings of guilt would come this early either. I figured that would come when she was older, but alas it's already happened. My sister says that it doesn't stop either. That you always feel guilty about something. I'm sure that she's right...she has been through this 3 times. I guess I feel the most guilty about not being able to breastfeed anymore. I wanted to so badly but things don't always work out the way we want them to. She's been sick for about 3 1/2 weeks now with this cold/sinus infection and I can't help but wonder if I was able to breastfeed longer if she wouldn't have gotten sick...or at least gotten well quicker. I would probably feel worse if I knew I hadn't tried everthing that I could to continue breastfeeding. I tried my best and my body just didn't want to cooperate. Seems like my body does that a lot. Oh well, you gotta work with what you have. My body doesn't usually do anything right that it's supposed to, but it's the only one that I have.

Last night I was getting Ella ready for bed and I was looking in her closet for some pj's for her to wear. I got one of her footy sleepers out to put it on her and when I held it up to her it was a good 2 1/2 inches to short. I called Jon in the room to look at how much she's grown. She smiled at her daddy and I put the sleeper in a box for stuff she will outgrow and then I cried. This is all going by so quickly and I want to enjoy every second of it. It's times like that when I realize that as cliche as it sounds...they really do grow up before you know it.